Some times I just do things that don’t make any sense. But they are such an ingrained response that I do them anyway. For example, when I’m really, really upset about something – not just irritated or peeved, but really upset –  I make something chocolate to eat. Of course, in hindsight I can see that this was a very bad idea. But I just do it.

So I had an entire jelly roll pan full of these thin little brownie-like bars, frosted with my amazing homemade chocolate frosting. I put them in the freezer, but that didn’t really hide them. It made it a couple steps further to get to them, but that doesn’t really slow me down at all. I ate a lot of them. Hence the bad weigh in. I told myself I wasn’t going to have any yesterday, but I didn’t listen to myself (big surprise!). Today I’m wavering between throwing the rest in the garbage or leaving them for Don to enjoy. But that doesn’t do either of us any good. I should really throw the rest away. I think I will….

But the lesson to be learned here is that I have to recognize habits that serve no purpose. I’m not sure what to do when I’m that upset, but taking a hot bath or even taking one of my relaxation pills would be better. Making something sweet that will be a temptation for days and totally ruin my weight loss efforts is not a good solution. It is just making an additional problem. And who needs that?