Last week I had an undeserved good weigh in and today I had a bad weigh in. Probably deserved, although I tried really hard the last 3 days. Still, it is difficult to make up for a bad Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. By Friday, I had several pounds to lose just to break even. So I was glad to be back down and a scant 0.2 pounds under last week’s weight.

This week I’m going to try to be “all in.” That is one of those things that you are or you aren’t. You can’t be “partly all in.” That just doesn’t make sense. So I had to think hard and a little bit long before deciding I wanted this weight loss enough to actually be ALL in. Just a few minutes ago, I decided I was “really hungry.” Last week I would have said, “Well, 2:00 is close enough to 3:00 to go ahead and eat my snack.” But today I said, “It is only 2:00. Have something to drink and 3:00 will be here before long.” I knew that eating that banana at 2:00 was going to mean I would be really, really hungry by supper time and would most likely eat something that I wasn’t supposed to between 4:30 and 6:00.

I reviewed last week’s eating, since I write down everything I eat and when I eat it. It was easy to see what happened. Afternoon happened. Down time. Two of the days I was a bit wired from being at school most of the day. But it was ME that made the decision to react by eating. And it has to be ME that makes the decision to react by doing something more appropriate. One of the big problems was the M&M’s that just “showed up” in my candy jar where I usually have mint lentils that are so expensive I don’t eat many. So this week I gave Dad his super sized dark chocolate candy bar he’d bought yesterday and asked him to put it somewhere that I don’t know where it is. I could clearly see the evidence that, once I start in on chocolate, I don’t stop until I’ve had way too much.  And yesterday, walking into Walmart, when Dad said we needed to get ice cream, I replied that he was in charge of that because it wasn’t on MY list. We got home with none, which I see as a good situation! And he doesn’t really care if he has diet chocolate pudding or ice cream anyway.

So, I’m off to a good start again this week, as I was last week. But I’m am more prepared to expect to be wired when I get home from school tomorrow, Wednesday and Thursday. And I have this really cool new coffee maker (that I got from an auction Saturday), so I can have hot water just sitting there waiting for me whenever I need it! Now, when I decide to have a cup of coffee instead of an early snack, it is a much easier decision to make because I don’t have to wait 10 minutes for the tea pot to heat up.